One of my mentors wrote to me recently that now that things are settling down a bit in our lives, it might be that the emotions that I haven’t had the chance to pay attention to while we were in survival mode will bubble up to the surface and unseat […]
We think our house hunting saga might be over. We have found a place, and have entered negotiations with the landlady. The house is OK – looks big from the outside but is modest inside. The garden is amazing – lots of shade, and absolutely massive. It even has the mango trees […]
Grief is …. a slow crush from all sides. …. the tsunami I am holding back until some of the other things settle down a bit and it can break. …. the pea under my mattress, as I wake each morning, surprised that my body isn’t showing the bruises of […]
Today is one month since Red Twin died. Arthur asked me if I think I’m depressed. I’m just so sad all the time. But I said no. It’s not been the 6-8 weeks yet (the normal initial adjustment period to shock or trauma) so I think it’s too early to […]
Were we really in Australia for only three weeks? It seemed so much longer, and I have returned to a world which is both familiar and strange to me. It’s not just the jet lag which means I have trouble recalling what time I’m meant to take Elliot to swimming […]
My sisters led beautiful prayers at Red Twin’s memorial service. I share them here with their permission. Anna: Let us pray together, starting with verses from the last Psalm Mum and Red Twin read together: Psalm 116 15 Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his faithful servants. 16 Truly […]
Red Twin died 22 March 2018, and I gave a eulogy at her funeral 28 March 2018. I’ve copied it below with minor edits for the written form. About Red Twin When we were in primary school, Red Twin had on her sandwich every single day devon (which is like […]
