In our backyard, the teak and custard apple trees are greening again after losing their leaves in the cooler season. The ground is bone dry as we await the big rains. (Normally we expect them at the end of the year but with climate change the seasons have become more […]
I recently got access to some videos Red Twin made while she was in Central Asia. I’ve been watching them and will watch some more tomorrow on the 3rd anniversary of her death. The first video I watched was her telling about a fabulous night out she’d had, one where […]
In my dream Red Twin and I were up to some kind of mischief. These things are hazy in dreams. But in the middle of it we took a break and were in a kitchen cooking, eating, playing with my little ones. And we stopped to take some photos. We […]
I recently read a fabulous article reflecting on lament and hope in a COVID-19 world. Cathy Ross draws on the books of Lamentations and 1 Peter to wrestle with how voicing pain can be a path to healing. This means that lament can actually be a way of keeping hope […]
I sit up past midnight for the third night in a row, hours past when I am normally sound asleep. I rack my brains for what the difference is but I can’t think what it is. I’ve been waking at 5am like normal when my alarm goes off, exercising each […]
“Go and give Mama some gentle touches,” said Arthur to Callum. “She’s feeling sad.” Callum came over to me. “I know why you’re sad, Mama,” he said. “It’s Auntie Red Twin.” Well, it was and it wasn’t. Actually, I was sad because I’d just received the news that some friends […]
I say to Callum as we leave our weekly family dinner, “Say good bye to Pop,” and he hides his face in my leg. It’s too hard. A day later, his craft cat mask is ruined thanks to a brotherly dispute, and he agrees it’s time for it to go […]
